I find myself always needing or perhaps wanting something.
I want to be content, but yet the desire for more is ever there.
I am wishing I had a car. Janis has a work vehicle and this week is working much further from home than usual. I realized just how stuck I really am when I contemplated the fact that he will be beyond reach this week. We have LOTS of snow and I stay at home except for the one or two times a week Janis takes us out. The walk from our house to town is in good weather 45 minutes, and now would be much longer. Not to mention my big belly slowing down all movements :)
So, I guess I should pray for a car. God can provide. Yet he has provided so much for us. Maybe I should give up the idea of a second home birth and opt for the free hospital option. . .
Yet, I don't want nurses or doctors hovering around me, interfering with me and the birth of my baby. Having experienced a home birth already, and knowing how that is, I don't think I would like to have my baby in the hospital- unless the need were to arise.
So this week I don't know how I will get to the places I "need" to go to. But somehow I believe God can work that out.
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